The Lobster and the Dinosaur
So many takeaways, but like the uncomfortable lobster getting hotter on the grill of life, it’s time to throw away my 'not good enough' mindset.
It really doesn't serve me and my whole life I have been good enough for most things. When I wasn't quite the best at some task, I had other qualities like perseverance and enthusiasm that saw me through anyway.
Like Pressfield says; I can't allow others keep on defining my reality. I’m capable and clever enough to create my own parameters, then to knock them down and build new ones whenever I’m ready.
I can’t afford to limit my reality with the dinosaur beliefs of my past. That I’ll never be successful when in anyone’s definition, I have been.
I have everything needed. I am loved, healthy and cared for in a comfortable home in a beautiful place in the world. There’s friends, meaningful work, money in the bank, children and a life partner who’s always interesting.
I want for nothing, unless it’s a two book deal with a big four publisher. And who knows, getting that might even be out there for me one day?
If it’s not I’m okay, perfectly capable of getting on without it. I’ve been living the dream for years while believing I’ve failed because of a paucity mentality. Now I’ve printed that, it seems ridiculous I didn’t get rid of it ages ago.
Those creaky dinosaur beliefs should have died out. I should ditch them like I’ve ditched all the ultra small sized clothes that I’ve outgrown in the last thirty years.
Can’t think of anything I’m not good-enough for right now.
Maybe dancing or singing publicly. But, despite not being too good at that I was paid well to go on the stage at seventeen. There was stacks of applause, even if I didn’t hit the high notes. Nobody complained, but I spent too much time comparing my ability to those who had more experience.
Such a waste.
Perhaps I was only ever not good enough for myself? Again, in print that looks like the most stupid thing I’ve ever written.
Better get on with breaking down more fences, letting that T-Rex within go on a rampage of self discovery.
Thank you for the life lessons Anthony Moore; I think you’ve unleashed something scary. I appreciate it, cheers to you.
