Ditto AJ.
I had devastating drought, bushfires, an insect invasion, asthma attacks and was so fearful and depressed through it all I almost gave up my faith in God. I went one better than you though, I became really angry with God. I’d go out into my garden and just cry for rain to put out our bushfires and end the drought.
I was wretched, the log in my own eye was huge and I couldn’t see past it.
After three years of visualising rain, it happened five weeks ago. It sounds crazy but…last Monday we had a small flood. I couldn’t be happier though; it only damaged our road badly and the council fixed that last Friday.
I had a testing 3 months, an horrific summer, but like you, am grateful to be alive and get another chance to live well with God.
All the best AJ. We all fail because we are not God but are all too human. Failing is what all of us humans are really good at. Here’s hoping you get the learning, loving, listening, believing, living and healing you need right now.
Most of all, forgive yourself.
You’re not that bad really; let His love wash over you and make you better.
My farm was dry, arid, hot and had bare, cracked earth without any green in January. This is the view from my house today. I feel better now. My prayers took a while to be answered, but they were. The change is nothing short of miraculous.
